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Friday, November 06, 2009

I Am A Beef Patty

Besides feeling like I am ugly and round and flat like a beef patty, I think I have really become one. I am now sandwiched between Sam and Laura, one who wants me to come, and another who don't. Both asked for me to ignore the other and juz listen to them. But of course the meaner one says.

"I'm also your boss you know. Listen to me. I say you do not come then you dun come. Dun go ad tell my husband about it. Anything juz call me to tell me."

Horrible... I wanna go back to K9 to work... The bitches there are so much nicer and more adorable.


come live in my heart and pay no rent
jiehui + junlin = <3<3
- juzme;

~ { 5:37 PM }

Saturday, October 24, 2009

My Horrible Colleague

What a super horrible person!!

I have a compulsive liar for a colleague!! On top of that she takes advantage of me!!! Yesterday when i came to work she say that it was a birthday yesterday and that she was very happy... Then she said that she have a very bad sore throat and she cannot work today cuz she really feel unwell...

RUBBISH!!!!

Her birthday is TODAY!!! So she purposely didn't want to come to work today cuz she want to take leave. But she lied to all of us. I'm sure if she told the truth Sam and Laura will be more than happy to give her a day off for her birthday. But she DIDN'T. Instead, she chose to lie.

Somemore everything is like preempted and she already prepared to lie yesterday to me so she say her birthday is yesterday when its actually today. It is juz lyk the last time during Deepavali when she wanted to spend time with her kids cuz I heard her say so. Then she give me some crap about meeting a client and want me to to go work. And then there is the other time when Bikram say that they have already finished work at around 2 or 3pm lyk that but she only reached the office at around 5 plus almost 6pm.

How big is Singapore anyway?? Did she WALK from the Yishun warehouse back here???

I only found out about today being her actual birthday cuz I'm doing the price tagging that she ask me to do, on top of everything else while she spends her day playing FB. In fact she is so lazy to the point where i ask her about the price of the furnitures she also cannot bother to get off her big fat butt to help me see.

She's juz lyk Puva. Hope she ends up the same as her. All she knows how to do is complain about Laura and tell me how bad Laura is and try to get me on her side. Actually even though Laura is a perfectionist she is not that bad lo. And all the crap about everything that she has done is not true lo... Is not she do de...

LIAR LIAR PANT ON FIRE!!!!!


come live in my heart and pay no rent
jiehui + junlin = <3<3
- juzme;

~ { 2:13 PM }

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Wasted Time...

On a whim, I decided to visit your FB page today, I suddenly realised how much I used to love you. You were my best fren, I accepted you when others did not. I befriended you when others shied away, but in order to get closer to my frens, you sacrificed me. You bad-mouthed me to your frens whom YOU introduced to me in fear that they would prefer me over you. You bad-mouthed me to MY frens so that they will prefer YOU over ME. You made my life miserable. I could not forgive you for it. I hated you so much for ruining my life and I hated my frens who din trust me.

Unbeknown to me, I carried the hate for so many years within me.

I couldn't understand why you could do this to me. I loved you so much and cared for you so much. I couldn't always be there for you like you wanted me to, but I know I tried. I couldn't get over the way you treated me and I buried the hurt within me. All these time I distanced myself from you and the frens who treated me so contemptuously because of you. I know in the end they tried to make it up to me. But I told myself I din need frens who din trust me. Not even enough to to let me defend myself or explain myself or even let them know that wad you said were lies.

These I carried until now. You made me lose my faith in frens and I lost myself many many frenships that would have been lasting.

But today, I let go of everything. I forgive you for treating me like crap, for my frens who gave up on me, and even your sis and ex-bf who was ridiculous to flame me on this very blog. Because only now have I allowed myself to see that all those years ago, justice has actually been served and they have seen you for what you are. Everything ended years and years ago and its time for me to let go too.

You are not the first to have treated me like that. My stupidity lies in allowing people like you to hurt me time and again. But to me you hurt the most because you made me your stepping stone when I trusted and cared for you so much. I wasted so much time carrying these hate within me.

I know you are supposed to first forgive and then forget. Over these years I have forgotten.

But today...

I forgive.

I have forgiven...


come live in my heart and pay no rent
jiehui + junlin = <3<3
- juzme;

~ { 11:17 AM }

Monday, September 21, 2009

Happenings...

Ok... Many things happened recently, but since i din blog for so long tts lyk an understatement. =x haha...

lets see, firstly, in june i went clubbing with sy, lays and eve. Was ok lo.. At Rebel and this 2 groups of malay guys fighting knocked onto us and things were abit chaotic. Sy's fren got real drunk and cute. Haha..

The rest was pretty boring la, nothing much happening. But on 11th September something pretty major happened. I dun know where else I can talk about how I feel so I guess an abandoned blog is a good place to start. Me and Issac got into an accident with a bus. Motorbike VS Bus. I think it is pretty obvious who came off worse.

Not many people know about this incident and I do not really intend to tell them. I guess I dun really know where to start from. I dun even remember much about it, and if I tell them that I was in an accident everyone wants to know what happened. I'm not seriously injured or anything like that. It's juz that every time I think back on the incident i feel very stressed. No matter how hard I try to remember what happened, it's like the more time pass the less I remember and the emptiness in my chest seem to grow bigger.

At first, I couldnt sleep at night. Every time I close my eyes I see the bus coming towards us or I can feel the pain when the nurse clean my wounds. Every night when I sleep I dream of the accident. Except that I dun remember anything when I wake up. Now, at least I dun dream of the accident anymore. I juz dream of scary dreams and wake up terrified. Haiz, hope everything will be over soon...

My wound looks scary tho. It looks gross and yucky. I peeked at the doctor's report and it says that the wound is infected. My heart almost dropped out. Once when they opened the wound it was like secreting black stuff out. I juz feel so helpless and confused. Maybe thats why doctors have horrible handwriting, so that patients cannot peek and freak themselves out.

The wound feels better now tho, tender but better. Hopefully tml when they change the dressing it will be much much better. Maybe it will all be healed. I hope. It's been so hard for me to write all these down. Altho I no longer feel like crying when I think of the accident, the empty feeling I get cant seem to go away. I dun think I can ever ride a bike again. Now, sitting in the front seat of a car makes me terrified. Every time another car cuts into out lane I'm terrified we will hit it. I brace myself for the impact each time that occurs and it's wearing me out to be so tensed all the time. At least if I seat in the back seat I can concentrate on other things.

I juz wish for everything to be over and everything to be back the same it was. Hopefully, there wun be any scaring.


come live in my heart and pay no rent
jiehui + junlin = <3<3
- juzme;

~ { 12:16 PM }

Monday, April 27, 2009

Shit Load of Crap


ok... to begin with.. here's a damn chio photo of me on the poster for Face of 2009 at Downtown East. Issac was in tt modelling competition but photos will have to wait til lynn send them to me... =D






























i muz post many many many of my photo cuz tts the only one tt i've got!! =( haha... but dun really look lyk me tho.. =(

next... i changed my phone! finally.. to the ice cream phone.. cost baby only $38.. kekeke.. one of my best buys EVER!!! haha

school has started and i'm already lagging behind.. i juz dun get all those mathematical modules and it totally sucks lyk shit... omg... sometimes i juz feel so dumdum...

on a happier note... i got A for my attachment!! hehe.. i dunno if i will get my performance bonus... haha.. lalala...


come live in my heart and pay no rent
jiehui + junlin = <3<3
- juzme;

~ { 9:14 PM }

Monday, April 13, 2009

My Wish List

~*~*~*~*~*~
I wish this hadn't happened.
I wish I could turn back time.
~*~*~*~*~*~
If I cry and get emotional,
I wish you knew that it isn't because you have hurt me.
I just needed to get it off my chest.
~*~*~*~*~*~
I need diversions, so I do want to hear about you,
but I also want you to hear about me.
I might be sad and I might cry,
but I wish you would listen to me too.
~*~*~*~*~*~
I know that you think of me often.
I also know that you know I miss you too.
But I wish you would let me know these things
through a phone call, an sms, or a real big hug.
~*~*~*~*~*~
I wish you wouldn't expect my grief to be over.
These times are traumatic for me,
but I wish you could understand that my grief will never be over.
I will suffer this until the day I die.
~*~*~*~*~*~
I am working hard to forget it all,
but I wish you could understand.
I will never fully recover,
ar least not as quickly as you want me to.
~*~*~*~*~*~
I wish you wouldn't expect me
"not to think about it" or "be happy".
Neither will happen for a very long time,
so don't frustrate yourself.
~*~*~*~*~*~
I know you don't believe me,
when I say "I'm quite sure it happened".
But I wish you wouldn't say,
"Just pretend that it didn't."
~*~*~*~*~*~
I wish you understood how my life has shattered.
I know it is miserable for you to be around me
when I'm feeling miserable.
Please be as patient with me as I am with you.
~*~*~*~*~*~
When I say, "It's okay",
I wish you could understand
that I don't "feel" okay.
~*~*~*~*~*~
I wish you knew that all these feelings
I'm having are very normal.
Depression, anger, hopelessness and overwhelming sadness
are all to be expected.
So please excuse me
when I'm quiet and withdrawn or irritable and cranky.
~*~*~*~*~*~
Your advice to "take it one day at a time" is excellent advice.
However,
a day is too much and too fast for me right now.
I wish you could understand
that I'm doing good to handle an hour at a time.
~*~*~*~*~*~
Please excuse me if I seem rude,
certainly not my intent.
Sometimes the world around me goes too fast
and I need to get off.
When I walk away,
I wish you would let me find a quiet place to spend time alone.
I wish you understood that I've changed.
~*~*~*~*~*~
i got this off this webpage which i felt was interesting.. it really touched my heart a certain way.. i couldnt put everything here becuz i'm not ready yet... so i changed a few things.. and hope tts okay...


come live in my heart and pay no rent
jiehui + junlin = <3<3
- juzme;

~ { 11:43 AM }

Wednesday, March 04, 2009

Day 2



We started off at Shaw Centre in the morning in our uniform which was issued to us on Day 1 where we completed our product knowledge training. We also tried to adjust the length of the watches using the tools provided. The seniors from Chomel Wisma Atria and Chomel Marina Square sat in for our training.

After our training, we were to proceed to our respective outlets after lunch. After lunch, I went to Chomel Marina Square where I was attached to for the duration of my ITP. I had a more indepth training wth my senior there and she did the Induction Programme with me. She told me that I would be tested on my Product Knowledge 3 days later and in the meantime to clarify any doubts with her.


come live in my heart and pay no rent
jiehui + junlin = <3<3
- juzme;

~ { 11:11 PM }